My relationship with blogging

When I think of blogging, I think of a diary. My blogs usually consists of my emotions, train of thoughts, feelings, activities, etc. Most of the time, I just blog what was on the top of my mind. Other times, I blog what is bothering me at the time or what’s making me happy. Once in a awhile, I look at my blogs throughout a period of time to see how much I’ve changed. However, my relationship with blogging has not always been this way. I started out blogging on xanga when I was 14. My friends and I decided that this would be a fun way for us update each other with our lives. Eventually, everyone stopped blogging but I continued. At first, the posts were mainly the same as before, updates. As time passed, I began blogging deeper, emotional thoughts. Xanga became an outlet for me to record what I was thinking without everyone knowing. Thus, I made my blogs private providing the password only to a select few. Despite knowing my blogs are not public, I sometimes hold back from what I truly want to say. Sometimes, I reread my blogs after posting them, only to realize that this felt too vulnerable, even if its private.